i'm still depressed, and i'm gonna regret saying this, but...

i don't like myself at all, and i don't want to exist

if my parents weren't married, then i wouldn't exist

i would always have acne on my face; i have a short height; i have a disability that causes me to act "mentally retarded", and i always get angry easily for no goddamn reason

not to mention, i suck at typing/writing grammar because i sometimes make mistakes or forget to add the word

and i still have misophonia, the sounds that trigger me, and i can't get myself to cure it...

yet, i am still traumatized by that stupid ass drama from one year ago, and i am trying to avoid it, but it keeps coming back for no reason

i was trying to move on, but... i fail... i fail all of you...

i'm sorry...

i don't think i can't go on with this... 💔